T I N A H U I Y II
eggcrack on 3rd january 1990
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This is my blog so Click here if you hate it. I'm looking for love not an empty page.
Full of stuff that means nothing
At the end of the day, it doesn't even matter. =)
alL couples to be lovely n happy celebrate my 21th birthday with all my loves one
confidence
surprise!
slim down CNY @ ipoh
go BKK!
HongKong! more clothes enough! burberry bag GUGGI bag Coach wristlet LongChamp bag rings P/T Job! More iphone4 covers! Polaroid Pink luggage Escada Perfume iphone 4! XD DSLR! driving license
A car
Mine was average but the people i was with, they were awesome! Didn't get to see fireworks this year.. What's disappointing was, not able to celebrate with him this year? Guess he's happy over there with his friends.. Sad. Feeling amiss, perhaps cause of his absence? As he promised but who knows everything end up this way.
As i spent the past 3 new years with him.
Well, my relationship was a coaster ride.
Though it could went as bumpy, in the end he rise his hand to stop the ride out of the sudden.
It's always the same in every relationship.
There is always one person crying and wishing to get back together.
while the other doesn't even remember the things they have been through. I hate that I have to be the one who remembers every little detail,
while he can't seems to remember me anymore.
What was worst for me was 在我还来不及做任何事之前他就离我而去
i actually planned everything for us(like 5days event in a row can) as it suppose to be our 3yrs 1mth on this coming sunday.
And it's my birthday too.
i planned everything cuz i feel that we had been losing out something as a couple ever since we get closer.
we had forgotten how to cherish each other and how hard we manage to get together (as my mum dun really like him in the past).
I know that we had been getting lazy to understand each other feeling, listen to each other 心事. And of course started to restrist each other from doing wadever thing that don't suit our sight, changing away character to someone else. And i actually blame on his friends and classmates by taking him away from me!
I always thought everything is always so 理所当然, thought getting in to a relationship will be a forever to me. Which i was wrong.
So I tried to make everything as a surprise to him so that we can wash always all the up and down by the last day of 2009 and get a new fresh 2010.
Planned :
Wed - Movie with him and have a nice chat with him.
Thurs- count down tgt and make him stay over at my hse.
Fri - Make him lunch before he wake up. and couples outing.
Sat- My birthday celebration
Sun- Spend my birthday with him.
But everything end on 30 Dec.
i feel so 遗憾.
okay, it's the first post of the year. i shall stop talking abt it. and leave the rest of the story to my next post instead?
hereby i want to thanks a number of ppl who always there for me.
My parents.
Like what ppl said. Family will always be the one there for you.
My Daddy, always so worry about me until now. Always help me to talk over to my mum since i'm young. school work, relationship etc. Ever since that day, every morning he will walk over to my bed and asked me if i'm still sad about it, asked me not to be sad etc. And he actually love him the way he love me. i know my dad actually like him and trust him alot. whenever i'm with him, he got no worries. But i disappoint him. yet he gave me alot of money as my bday present. somehow i burst into tears when i saw this advance bday present was left on my desk. Thanks dad!
My Mummy, the one who always so cool, dun like to show out her care and concern in front of us. I know she love us alot. But kind of disappoint her(like always?). Yes, she is the one who tried to stop our relationship ever since i know Zhi Hong. My dad somehow helped me alot in talking it over with my mum. It takes 1year for her to agree with it. Yet i have disappoint her again. Sorry mum! I love u!
I wanna to say sorry to my parents as i had been running away from them ever since tat day. By staying out at friend's hse, goin out till late night, not waking up until they had left home for work etc. i'm sorry! i promise i will over come with it asap.
Next, my god sis and her cousins.
they are the awesome ppl who i had spent with during countdown. With them, i just can't stop laughing. i cried, laugh, doing all sort of nonsense etc. Thanks for being with me when i'm up and down. Yu Shian! i wanto see u get married soon! faster can?! HAHAHS! and of course ah ni and ah qi! xD
Ya Ting mei.
Big thanks to her as well! I hire her 1yr ago. and now her mum hire me when i need a job.
aren't this cool? she came over to my house ytd all the way from paya lebar. Just to let me cry over her shoulder. how nice is it?! i'm so touch! big thanks and hug to u!
All my sweeties
Eileen, Amanda, Glenn, Lin Han.
Spend my genting trip with them, my up and down. i had been the one doin and talking nonsense. i had been running away from them too. cuz i jus couldn't help but cry if i see them. leen and man have been the one who see me getting into relationship, listen to all my troubles. they are also the one who me and zhi hong always hang out with,couples outing. To Glenn: stop making me cry in front of u can! so pai seh la.
Anyway, thanks for bring me out ytd night for last night movie and supper. they even planned to drive me for dinner tonight to celebrate my birthday in advance. how sweet are they?!
Ah mao and pei pei.
hasn't contact for some mths. but they called and speak to me. somehow i jus keeps crying on the phone. sorry! i just couldn't help when somemore tried to 安慰me.But still tank you for sharing ur thoughts. =)
Lastly,
To my dear da piggy, zhi hong.
Bear me from calling you this for the last time.
it had been a 3yrs relationship, the longest and the happiest. Perhaps it's really fate tat brought us this far. Through the past yr , i don't think i'm the only one suffering. I had definitely had drag you along and x2 of my pain. As i said, i always thought it will always be your hands i'm holding waiting for the rain after rainbow. Althought friends told me about the choices, but then again. Until u shouted stop. At this point of time, giving me an unforgetable new year and birthday present. No more blame. All stupid stuffs i did at least it let me know tat i had tried.
Thanks for spend the 3years with me, esp the 1st year. It had been the best part of my life so far. Tomorrow suppose to be 3years 1month. I will still want to say , happy 37 months. piggy.
Anyway , i wanna thank my readers here, for sending in mail and comments for me. I am really touch to receive them althought i dont know them.Thanks for caring about me and consoling me. Love from me. =)
i should stop this post here. it took me 2hrs.
Happy New Year, Guys!
Hope 2010 will be a smooth-sailing year for everybody.
